Fate or Destiny

Why?

Why does it all have to be so confusing?

Complicated –

Convoluted –

Completely out of my control….

I told myself I was done – forever.

But then I saw you again,

in my dreams.

Every night for a week,

I dreamt of you.

I saw your chocolate eyes,

your broad smile,

felt the whiskers on your face

against my cheek.

I felt love for you again.

It felt like I was drowning,

I couldn’t breathe and

my body was weak and-

and –

it was amazing.

Being near you made me feel whole again.

Then, I open my eyes

to the reality that you are gone…

After all the tears, the fighting, yelling and total emotional torture,

why do I crave you?

Why does my heart yearn for you,

even in my unconsciousness?

Could it even be possible for us to work again?

Does fate tempt us

until we make the decision to part indefinitely,

Or

Does destiny keep bringing us

back together because we are meant to be?

Why?

Why does it all have to be so confusing?