Thank you for this season of challenges, personal growth & most of all good memories. You have poured out your blessings unto me and I am forever grateful for the home I have, the health and safety of those I love, and the beautiful relationship I had with G.
I am so beyond thankful for having him be a part of my story. He is my first love. We shared so many beautiful moments together, and I learned what love truly is with him. He taught me countless numbers of things like how to cook chicken on the stove, how to fish, how to compromise, how to forgive, how to love… And he taught me how to love myself. He made me feel so special and so incredibly beautiful all the time.
Thank you for getting us through these past couple of months. We suffered deaths in our lives this winter that were absolutely heart breaking. I am so blessed that I had him to console me and help me grieve the loss of my longest friend, Ginger. And I pray that I was helpful and comforting to him as he grieved the loss of friends and his grandfather. All I ever wanted to do was make him happy and make his life a little bit more bearable than it was before.
Father, I will miss the love we shared. I will miss his sleep talking at night, the way he would roll over and hug me in the mornings, whispering sweet nothings into my ear while I pretended to be asleep. I will miss his goofy faces, his laugh and jokes I never really understood. Mostly, I will miss the way he looked at me – like I was the only person that mattered in the whole world. I’ll miss his beautiful smile and the feel of his body against mine.
I will never stop loving him Lord, but I pray that he is able to heal the brokenness in his heart. Allow him to succeed and I ask that he gets everything he wants out of life in You. I pray he never forgets me… I pray he never forgets the feel of my skin, the scent of my hair, my smile or the color of my eyes… I pray he never forgets the way I looked at him, he was my world.
Let us both remember the good memories, like when we went to see Christmas lights and I met his sister and niece for the first time – oh, how I was so nervous! May we remember bowling together, cuddling up and watching Jack Ryan or Fringe, going on our daily walks during quarantine, playing Crash Bandicoot for hours on end, paddle boarding in the summer sun, laying in bed and talking about everything and nothing all at once, doing life together as a team…
Yes, our relationship wasn’t perfect, but it was amazing. He made me the happiest I had ever been, and the saddest. Thank you for teaching us so much about each other, ourselves and what love is. I pray that he and I are able to reconnect in the future and at least become friends again.
Bless us with beautiful marriages, whether that is with other people or back together.
I pray that he is able to forgive me for the cruel and harsh things I have said to him… I yelled at him and acted so mean! All the things I hate! May he find it in his heart to understand, to forgive, and to remember me – us – fondly.
In Your name I pray,