Let Go

I was scared, holding onto the only love I’ve ever known. I was holding onto the old us. In the beginning, you tried, you made me happy, and I was a priority. You bought me little gifts, sent me sweet morning texts, surprised me at work, and actually made time for me. Then, months went by and – everything changed. You stopped trying, and I … Continue reading Let Go

Weak Heart

It feels like years since I last saw you, since I last held you… When I try to think about life without you, my heart can’t handle it. I collapse from the brokenness, the shards stabbing my weak heart. I try to give it back to you, begging you to take my heart back. Please take my weak heart, tie it to yours, so it … Continue reading Weak Heart

Her Spirit

Her spirit knows there is something wrong before it is physically manifested.  She has anxious, looming thoughts and feelings about the future.  At night, her body curls up as she dreams of the depressing inevitable.  She awakes, shaking, feeling a tear slide down her cheek.  “No”, she begs.  “Please no…” The days continue on, the same foreboding ache in her heart.  She tries to ignore … Continue reading Her Spirit

The Kiss

The kiss- Oh that one kiss, It changed my life  Forever.  It had been six months.  Six long months since I knew  I wanted you.  I needed you.  I craved you.  Six suffocating months of swallowing my feelings, Feigning hate because admitting my love for you was just too hard.  You didn’t want me.  I had to not want you either… Six months.  Then,  You … Continue reading The Kiss

Spiraling

Spiraling Into madness. My brain So anomalistic Idiosyncratic Unparagoned Encumbered. It hurts Oh how it hurts. My thoughts Cut through my mind Sharp Painful Bloody… I’m bleeding. A cocaphony In my brain. Loud, confusing, caustic. I’m spiraling Down Down Deeper still. Indelicate black tunnels Pull me farther in. I can’t see now. I feel the ghosts Of my past Tug at me. I’m pulling apart. … Continue reading Spiraling