Her Spirit

Her spirit knows there is something wrong before it is physically manifested.  She has anxious, looming thoughts and feelings about the future.  At night, her body curls up as she dreams of the depressing inevitable.  She awakes, shaking, feeling a tear slide down her cheek.  "No", she begs.  "Please no..." The days continue on, the... Continue Reading →

The Kiss

The kiss- Oh that one kiss, It changed my life  Forever.  It had been six months.  Six long months since I knew  I wanted you.  I needed you.  I craved you.  Six suffocating months of swallowing my feelings, Feigning hate because admitting my love for you was just too hard.  You didn’t want me.  I... Continue Reading →

Spiraling

Spiraling Into madness. My brain So anomalistic Idiosyncratic Unparagoned Encumbered. It hurts Oh how it hurts. My thoughts Cut through my mind Sharp Painful Bloody... I’m bleeding. A cocaphony In my brain. Loud, confusing, caustic. I’m spiraling Down Down Deeper still. Indelicate black tunnels Pull me farther in. I can’t see now. I feel the... Continue Reading →

Talk to Me

Talk to me Say something One word Just one Please... I need - I need to know Where you stand With me. Say something. What do you feel, What do you think, What have I done wrong... I want to explode I want to rip my hair out One by one. These thoughts They attack... Continue Reading →

See Me

You don't see me. You see your expectations of me. You see a version of me that you want, Or expect me to be.   They say "She's a whore", "She's dumb" "She's a bitch" "She's selfish"... You don't see me.   I don't fit into a box, I'm hard to understand, I'm uniquely me. The world refuses... Continue Reading →

Magnets

Magnets. They pull together. One is drawn towards the other. It is their nature. You hold the magnets just close enough, you can't pull them apart. The draw is too strong.   We pulled apart.  It felt unnatural.  Sudden. Yet, the draw is there. You came back. I never left.   We tried so hard... Continue Reading →

Glass

Glass hearts, so fragile, so easy to break. Broken glass. My heart is shattered.  Shards of broken pieces stab my insides.  Moving forward hurts.  Moving backwards hurts more. Maybe I love the feeling of pain.  Maybe I love brokenness and depression because it makes me feel something. Maybe I love getting hurt over and over... Continue Reading →

Death

Death. The thing everyone fears. The end. The dark... I’m not afraid. I feel a connection To the blackness. This dark side of me Has no fear. I embrace it. I embrace sin. I’m connected to death. Death is a part of me. Every dark corner in the hollows of my mind Resembles death. Death... Continue Reading →

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