I can’t stop myself from loving you, Even as you spit venom from your mouth, In between the sweet nothings That truly mean nothing at all. But they mean the world to me. I can’t get enough. The venom hurts, then it burns, then it begins to corrode my veins. I feel my heart slowly dying, My legs collapsing under me, And yet, … Continue reading You are my Poison
It’s been a year since I’ve asked myself, what do I want? I’ve been consumed with making a toxic relationship healthy, Consumed with making everyone happy and sometimes forgetting myself… I was content giving a man my all, loving him with my whole heart, Giving and giving and giving till there was nothing left to give… And he never gave back. I was happy because … Continue reading What Do I Want?
It feels like years since I last saw you, since I last held you… When I try to think about life without you, my heart can’t handle it. I collapse from the brokenness, the shards stabbing my weak heart. I try to give it back to you, begging you to take my heart back. Please take my weak heart, tie it to yours, so it … Continue reading Weak Heart
Dear Lord, Thank you for this season of challenges, personal growth & most of all good memories. You have poured out your blessings unto me and I am forever grateful for the home I have, the health and safety of those I love, and the beautiful relationship I had with G. I am so beyond thankful for having him be a part of my story. … Continue reading A Prayer for My First Love
It’s so strange how a good thing goes bad in an instant. All the good memories are flooded with the bad, with the lies, the abuse, the hurt. It’s so strange how one can fall out of love so quickly. I’ve never been that one. I love with my whole heart, I put my all into relationships – but then they end. I know it’s … Continue reading It’s so Strange…
Tossing & Turning Waiting for Morning Waiting for a Distraction Any Distraction My Ribs are Caving In Butterflies Racing in My Stomach My Heart Racing Faster When Will This End? I am Nervous I am Afraid I am Powerless The Anxiety in My Head Attacking My Body No Relief No Peace No Serenity Only Anxiety Continue reading Anxiety
Her spirit knows there is something wrong before it is physically manifested. She has anxious, looming thoughts and feelings about the future. At night, her body curls up as she dreams of the depressing inevitable. She awakes, shaking, feeling a tear slide down her cheek. “No”, she begs. “Please no…” The days continue on, the same foreboding ache in her heart. She tries to ignore … Continue reading Her Spirit
If he loves me, he will try. If he loves me, he won’t yell. If he loves me, he will communicate. If he loves me, he will listen. If he loves me, he won’t leave. But – If he does not, he will walk away. If I love myself, I will not let his anger affect me. I can not wait for change, when … Continue reading If Only He Loved Me…
two steps ahead, ten steps behind my walls have shed, love is so blind I give you my all, but you don’t have the time. two steps ahead and I’m running for your love, it’s too good to be true, I feel up and above. ten steps behind I’m crying in the dark, my trust was questioned and it broke my heart. … Continue reading two steps ahead, ten steps behind
The alarm went off, stirring me from my restless sleep. I covered my ears to protect my brain from the wretched sound coming over the intercom at 5 am every morning. And every morning, I wake up from horrendous nightmares to my life – a real nightmare. A nightmare without Ky. A nightmare where everyone and everything I care about is gone. What kind of … Continue reading Lavender & Ky: A Dystopian Story
