The Kiss

The kiss- Oh that one kiss, It changed my life  Forever.  It had been six months.  Six long months since I knew  I wanted you.  I needed you.  I craved you.  Six suffocating months of swallowing my feelings, Feigning hate because admitting my love for you was just too hard.  You didn’t want me.  I had to not want you either… Six months.  Then,  You … Continue reading The Kiss

Spiraling

Spiraling Into madness. My brain So anomalistic Idiosyncratic Unparagoned Encumbered. It hurts Oh how it hurts. My thoughts Cut through my mind Sharp Painful Bloody… I’m bleeding. A cocaphony In my brain. Loud, confusing, caustic. I’m spiraling Down Down Deeper still. Indelicate black tunnels Pull me farther in. I can’t see now. I feel the ghosts Of my past Tug at me. I’m pulling apart. … Continue reading Spiraling

“Keep your mind on things above…”

I feel the change, The air is cooler. The trees now full grown, begin their descent into winter. Leaves cover my toes, I am surrounded by red, orange and yellow. I stand alone, With my fellow trees. This feels like home, Feels like where I belong. I belong among the quiet, The lowly, The strong. I belong somewhere, Where I can appreciate – Truly appreciate … Continue reading “Keep your mind on things above…”

Better

  What have I done? What am I doing? I’ve ruined relationships, hurt people. I’ve lied, stolen and cheated. I have walked away from my faith, allowing the world to change me and influence every part of me. I have been mean, so mean. So unkind it’s grotesque. I’ve fallen in love with the wrong men out of desperation. Desperation… Why? Because I am afraid … Continue reading Better