Reality

Reality sucks, I hate it… But I know it is coming for me. I am perfectly comfortable Living in the romanticism in my mind, The dreams of my heart And hopes for the future. But now, Everything feels like it’s crumbling – Down, down, down… Into the depths of despair. I am scared.   I am scared of the realities of heartache. I am scared … Continue reading Reality

The Kiss

The kiss- Oh that one kiss, It changed my life  Forever.  It had been six months.  Six long months since I knew  I wanted you.  I needed you.  I craved you.  Six suffocating months of swallowing my feelings, Feigning hate because admitting my love for you was just too hard.  You didn’t want me.  I had to not want you either… Six months.  Then,  You … Continue reading The Kiss

Spiraling

Spiraling Into madness. My brain So anomalistic Idiosyncratic Unparagoned Encumbered. It hurts Oh how it hurts. My thoughts Cut through my mind Sharp Painful Bloody… I’m bleeding. A cocaphony In my brain. Loud, confusing, caustic. I’m spiraling Down Down Deeper still. Indelicate black tunnels Pull me farther in. I can’t see now. I feel the ghosts Of my past Tug at me. I’m pulling apart. … Continue reading Spiraling

Talk to Me

Talk to me Say something One word Just one Please… I need – I need to know Where you stand With me. Say something. What do you feel, What do you think, What have I done wrong… I want to explode I want to rip my hair out One by one. These thoughts They attack me Like a swarm of bees Like a hurricane Like … Continue reading Talk to Me

Run

Her hair flows behind her as she runs through the darkness.  Life hits her at every angle, but she continues to get back up.  Her body is covered in bruises, scrapes and scars.  Each mark from a hurtful word, a painful touch, a self hating thought… She still runs. Her body is weak, but her mind is strong.  She gets up.  She runs. What is … Continue reading Run

Better

  What have I done? What am I doing? I’ve ruined relationships, hurt people. I’ve lied, stolen and cheated. I have walked away from my faith, allowing the world to change me and influence every part of me. I have been mean, so mean. So unkind it’s grotesque. I’ve fallen in love with the wrong men out of desperation. Desperation… Why? Because I am afraid … Continue reading Better