I don't know why I remember running errands with my mom as a teen. It was the same every time - talk about boys and girl drama in the car, where we wanted to have lunch and why my mom was irritated with my dad lately. I remember the mountains to my right, glorious and... Continue Reading →
Grief
I never knew grief until that day, When I came home to find my brother Sobbing on the kitchen floor. His chest heaving with heartbreak, Desperate whimpers escaping his mouth. All I could do was stand there In complete and utter shock. “Jackie passed away this morning”. Those ugly words rang in my ears Jackie... Continue Reading →
Happiness
Happiness begins with living. With truly being free and comfortable in who you are. Happiness is yours to create. I used to grasp for people's hands, rely on other broken hearted people to ground me and make me feel - anything. Then, I lost the person I love. Then, I had to find myself again...... Continue Reading →
Dust to Dust
Alone in the garden I stumble upon an apple tree But this is no ordinary tree - no It has been in the family for generations This tree is strength, creation, protection, love… The tree sighs heavy breaths as it inhales and exhales The cool summer air. I breathe in sync with her Admiring her... Continue Reading →
The Narcissist
The Narcissist Self Absorbed Abusive Shallow Ego Centric Jealous Manipulator Liar Sadistic Unemotional Angry Conceited Unapologetic Devious Sly Self Serving Convincing "Innocent"... The Narcissist He is a snake that slithers silently around you, making his way up to your throat. At... Continue Reading →
Broken
Battered, Bruised. Ragged and Ruined. Offended. Knocked down. Empty. Nothing.
The Kiss
The kiss- Oh that one kiss, It changed my life Forever. It had been six months. Six long months since I knew I wanted you. I needed you. I craved you. Six suffocating months of swallowing my feelings, Feigning hate because admitting my love for you was just too hard. You didn’t want me. I... Continue Reading →
Spiraling
Spiraling Into madness. My brain So anomalistic Idiosyncratic Unparagoned Encumbered. It hurts Oh how it hurts. My thoughts Cut through my mind Sharp Painful Bloody... I’m bleeding. A cocaphony In my brain. Loud, confusing, caustic. I’m spiraling Down Down Deeper still. Indelicate black tunnels Pull me farther in. I can’t see now. I feel the... Continue Reading →
Talk to Me
Talk to me Say something One word Just one Please... I need - I need to know Where you stand With me. Say something. What do you feel, What do you think, What have I done wrong... I want to explode I want to rip my hair out One by one. These thoughts They attack... Continue Reading →
See Me
You don't see me. You see your expectations of me. You see a version of me that you want, Or expect me to be. They say "She's a whore", "She's dumb" "She's a bitch" "She's selfish"... You don't see me. I don't fit into a box, I'm hard to understand, I'm uniquely me. The world refuses... Continue Reading →
The Blonde Quill 