Why? Why does it all have to be so confusing? Complicated – Convoluted – Completely out of my control…. I told myself I was done – forever. But then I saw you again, in my dreams. Every night for a week, I dreamt of you. I saw your chocolate eyes, your broad smile, felt the whiskers on your face against my cheek. I felt love … Continue reading Fate or Destiny
I was scared, holding onto the only love I’ve ever known. I was holding onto the old us. In the beginning, you tried, you made me happy, and I was a priority. You bought me little gifts, sent me sweet morning texts, surprised me at work, and actually made time for me. Then, months went by and – everything changed. You stopped trying, and I … Continue reading Let Go
I yearn for broken things. For the things that make drunk lovers fall into eachother in the middle of the night and the things that keep them up while the rest of the world is asleep. I love you, I need you to break me, and I don’t want you to apologize for it at all. Continue reading Broken People by Robert M. Drake
I can’t stop myself from loving you, Even as you spit venom from your mouth, In between the sweet nothings That truly mean nothing at all. But they mean the world to me. I can’t get enough. The venom hurts, then it burns, then it begins to corrode my veins. I feel my heart slowly dying, My legs collapsing under me, And yet, … Continue reading You are my Poison
It’s been a year since I’ve asked myself, what do I want? I’ve been consumed with making a toxic relationship healthy, Consumed with making everyone happy and sometimes forgetting myself… I was content giving a man my all, loving him with my whole heart, Giving and giving and giving till there was nothing left to give… And he never gave back. I was happy because … Continue reading What Do I Want?
It feels like years since I last saw you, since I last held you… When I try to think about life without you, my heart can’t handle it. I collapse from the brokenness, the shards stabbing my weak heart. I try to give it back to you, begging you to take my heart back. Please take my weak heart, tie it to yours, so it … Continue reading Weak Heart
The Narcissist Self Absorbed Abusive Shallow Ego Centric Jealous Manipulator Liar Sadistic Unemotional Angry Conceited Unapologetic Devious Sly Self Serving Convincing “Innocent”… The Narcissist He is a snake that slithers silently around you, making his way up to your throat. At first the touch is euphoric, until he begins to suffocate … Continue reading The Narcissist
It’s so strange how a good thing goes bad in an instant. All the good memories are flooded with the bad, with the lies, the abuse, the hurt. It’s so strange how one can fall out of love so quickly. I’ve never been that one. I love with my whole heart, I put my all into relationships – but then they end. I know it’s … Continue reading It’s so Strange…
Tossing & Turning Waiting for Morning Waiting for a Distraction Any Distraction My Ribs are Caving In Butterflies Racing in My Stomach My Heart Racing Faster When Will This End? I am Nervous I am Afraid I am Powerless The Anxiety in My Head Attacking My Body No Relief No Peace No Serenity Only Anxiety Continue reading Anxiety
Her spirit knows there is something wrong before it is physically manifested. She has anxious, looming thoughts and feelings about the future. At night, her body curls up as she dreams of the depressing inevitable. She awakes, shaking, feeling a tear slide down her cheek. “No”, she begs. “Please no…” The days continue on, the same foreboding ache in her heart. She tries to ignore … Continue reading Her Spirit
