It’s so strange how a good thing goes bad in an instant. All the good memories are flooded with the bad, with the lies, the abuse, the hurt. It’s so strange how one can fall out of love so quickly. I’ve never been that one. I love with my whole heart, I put my all into relationships – but then they end. I know it’s … Continue reading It’s so Strange…
Tossing & Turning Waiting for Morning Waiting for a Distraction Any Distraction My Ribs are Caving In Butterflies Racing in My Stomach My Heart Racing Faster When Will This End? I am Nervous I am Afraid I am Powerless The Anxiety in My Head Attacking My Body No Relief No Peace No Serenity Only Anxiety Continue reading Anxiety
Her spirit knows there is something wrong before it is physically manifested. She has anxious, looming thoughts and feelings about the future. At night, her body curls up as she dreams of the depressing inevitable. She awakes, shaking, feeling a tear slide down her cheek. “No”, she begs. “Please no…” The days continue on, the same foreboding ache in her heart. She tries to ignore … Continue reading Her Spirit
If he loves me, he will try. If he loves me, he won’t yell. If he loves me, he will communicate. If he loves me, he will listen. If he loves me, he won’t leave. But – If he does not, he will walk away. If I love myself, I will not let his anger affect me. I can not wait for change, when … Continue reading If Only He Loved Me…
“Your intro needs to look like this…” “Don’t be cliché…” “Your character should be relatable…” “Make sure there is a point to your writing…” I have heard these comments constantly when reviewing a written work. You know what I say to those kinds of writing rules? To hell with them. Writing is a free, emotional outlet – so write what makes you happy. Write what … Continue reading Creativity can NOT be Contained
two steps ahead, ten steps behind my walls have shed, love is so blind I give you my all, but you don’t have the time. two steps ahead and I’m running for your love, it’s too good to be true, I feel up and above. ten steps behind I’m crying in the dark, my trust was questioned and it broke my heart. … Continue reading two steps ahead, ten steps behind
You’re confused. Lost. Dazed. Where am I? Was I driving? Then it hits – I am being arrested. Images of people dying on the news by the hand of our “protectors” flash in your mind – “I’m next,” you think. So you begin to fight, To resist, To run… BANG BANG “It was his fault!” “That was warranted.” “What did he think was going … Continue reading Where is the Church? – thoughts on recent events
The alarm went off, stirring me from my restless sleep. I covered my ears to protect my brain from the wretched sound coming over the intercom at 5 am every morning. And every morning, I wake up from horrendous nightmares to my life – a real nightmare. A nightmare without Ky. A nightmare where everyone and everything I care about is gone. What kind of … Continue reading Lavender & Ky: A Dystopian Story
The breeze from the open car window grazed my face, blew my long hair back and seemed to clear my mind with its purity. I closed my eyes, enjoying the softness of the air that brought freedom to my spirit. The sun kissed my face, warming my skin and undoubtedly forcing my freckles to become darker. And yet, my heart still ached. Peace lasted but … Continue reading Maybe I am Worthy of Love
Reality sucks, I hate it… But I know it is coming for me. I am perfectly comfortable Living in the romanticism in my mind, The dreams of my heart And hopes for the future. But now, Everything feels like it’s crumbling – Down, down, down… Into the depths of despair. I am scared. I am scared of the realities of heartache. I am scared … Continue reading Reality
